Lost and found

Losing oneself,

is quite terrifying.

Suddenly you don't know what you are capable of anymore.

Everything seems foreign and intimidating.

Approval from others seem to be the only way to be happy,

and  you change to get approval,

you try to become someone else,

in the name of improving.

But really,

are you improving or are you losing,

till you don't know yourself anymore,

you lose all visions,

all your decisions are based on other people wants,

you start to forget yours,

until,

people start to look down on you.

And you questioned,

where is my satisfaction,

I've done everything,

But I am not happy.

Luckily,

you stop and think,

you observe and feel,

and you start to search.

Until one day, you read a heartfelt article you wrote once upon a time,

you get back together with your real friends,

and when you were pushed to a corner and just have to survive,

And poof! YOU come back.

You start to remember how critical your thinking was,

You become very careful about people,

you are not afraid to show yourself,

no  more hiding,

just be what you are,

for better or worse,

and life feels better.